2008-06-30 -> 2008-07-01
What a wonderful feeling…………
Waking up on a workday morning normal time……and all thoughts/concerns/tasks for the
day going through my mind…….and then realisation struck home……..its not my worry
anymore 
I used to wake up in the morning and the first words out of my mouth for the last few years
was….”I don’t want to”….before I even kissed my partner good morning….how sad was
that? But the time just wasn’t right.
However, if we have to wait until the time is right, we will seldom accomplish what we want
to, so we have to take some risks and this is one I was more than prepared to take.
I decided that on Monday (30th) I was going to take it extremely easy and not think and not
develop any routine….in other words…..just sit (in front of the computer ofcourse)
…how could I not? LOL It’s my lifeline to the outside world ….. for now.
Yesterday, (1st), I didnt even think of work when I woke up and I didn’t even utter the
words….”I don’t want to”. I just woke up feeling awesome.
I tidied the house a bit…yes I’m not much of a Home Executive….in fact I suck…but I
prefer seeing things in their places . I went shopping and for the first time in years, I
actually compared prices…LOL. You see, from now there is only ONE income…and its not
mine. So I have to think 10 times before buying anything….something I never had to do or
chose not to do in the past. But the situation now is somewhat different so I have to take
great caution. I do have my head in the right place….I think….I hope….we’ll see 
The strange thing when I went shopping is that I could choose the time….what a great
feeling….didn’t have to sit in that awful traffic. Also, I started off with my normal driving
style and realised…..slow down…what are you rushing for?….but I guess this *rush* within
me will take a while to work out of my system. I hope it works out fast because I realise it
hasn’t been doing me or my car or fuel consumption any good
Today, I plan on hitting the road and yes, I plan on driving within the speed limit for once